Welcome 2012 And Goodbye 2011

I've learned a lot throughout 2011. Banyak suka dan duka. I've learned that no matter how much I try to please people and make an effort to get the things right, some people just don't give a damn. I'll just end up getting hurt. I realized I have made the mistake, and I did say sorry. Not even I said once, but more...

I 's pretty tough that when you believe that you are being yourself, yet there are still people out there dont like you for the way you are. And I've had enough. Well, just like seasons, people change always. So am I. No big deals. Haters gonna hate. It's fine if you don't like me. Sik pa Sik kesah. But for fact, you don't have to bash me on the net.

Sorry to say this, dear. but that's immature. Now, who's being childish?? does bashing me on the net  makes you feel a lot of better !

My new year's resolution?? confidence it is. but before that, 31 Dec? Its my birthday ! I just want to say a HUGE thank you to everybody who sent me birthday wishes.. Saya semakin dewasa, sudah tua !!! Hahaha... Tapi...

saya pendek so, kena pakai high heels...

I've NEVER ever had this amount of birthday messages and each one has made my heart grow a little bigger each time. I'm so... so... touched. *eksyen je banyak, hahaha* Thank you so so much guys. I woke up with a huge smile on my face.

So yep, last night was a very beautiful night. saya sempat buat solat hajat lepas solat isyak. making  some wish.. then continue reading the Holy Quran, and also Yasiin, the heart of Al -Quran..

I just feel really happy to have such wonderful people in my life. My family and friends are half way across the globe but they somehow felt really close to me. We did some processing, packing and shipping and afterwards got some dinner before doing a bit of shopping.

Oke, back to my new year's resolution. I want to become a better person. Achieve my goal. and make my parents proud of me. *big sigh*

The good and the bad times, the tears and the laughter, ups and downs, its unbelievable that i've been through them all. Thanks for the memories. 2011 wasn't the best year, but it taught me a lot about people and myself.

the toe turn 90 degree. laughing so hard when i read all the comments... so true!!! it's freaking hurts... Auww.. damn table... hahaha!!

I wish, I can write more but I'm just too tired. Gotta get some rest for a while. So, tonight I will went to bed with a big smile on my face and woke up with an even bigger smile. Insha-Allah... good night world..

...Goodbye 2011...Welcome 2012...

Am Funny???

im just me. and thats all i can be.

no more. no less.

no 2nd guess i laugh. i love. i live. i cry.

and sometimes i wish i would die. and others im not.

some day in my funny. some day in my overdrive.

and i cant stop. you may not like me.

but... thats ok this is me.

and this is how ill stay. some times i need tears.

cuz i dont think

i have much strength to faces all these.

sometimes i pretend. to be normal. but it gets boring.

so i being back to be me.

i dont need. black queen.

magic. mirror.

to answer who's the fairest of them all?

i just want.

an ugly mirror. to show me. the real horror.

that's mine. not yours.